Mar 23 2005
Bonding 2
Though I have been breastfeeding Ian since he was born, he has never been attached to me. Every time when he latched on, he either closed his eyes or looked elsewhere, not looking at me at all. At 2/3 months old, I was so frustrated, and I kept wondering does he know who feeds him or not.
The first time I traveled on business after delivery, was to Jakarta for 1 night. When I reached home, the moment he saw me entering the house, he was very excited and DROOLING! I guess he saw me as a source of food rather than a mother. But, whatever it is, he was so adorable when he did that.
Most of the time, Ian is not attached to me, despite me taking care of him every night (when I don’t have to travel). During the last CNY, when there were a lot of people in the house and he cried, he only wanted MIL – his caretaker. I actually felt really hurt. I kept consoling myself not to feel bad about it, as MIL really loves him. I kept telling myself that MIL deserves it, etc. But frankly speaking, I had never felt any better despite all the self-console.
But… after my last trip to Beijing (away from 14-20 Mar), I reached home past midnight on Sunday. I was only able to see Ian the next morning, before I left to work. He was still lazing on the bed, I touched him softly, lifting him up, hugged him and fed him. Wow… he just couldn’t hide his happiness! And in the evening, when I reached home early, he just cling on to me, didn’t want to let go. When MIL pulled him away to bath him, he cried so badly – never happened before because he loves bathing!
I am very happy about this. He knows me! He wants me! Not because of milk only! Yeah!
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how come suddenly so many post in a day wan?? very busy to read it ler..
I can understand how happy u r..sometimes I kinda jealous my mother too (She take care SQ daily)…She don’t want me at my mother house :(..but at home..she just stick on me..wanna fling oso kenot..hehe..such a good feeling actually…
see? your son never forget you are his mother wan, this is the wonder of breastfeeding.
hi! the feeling of closeness is wonderful hor! I FTWM too but seldom travel la. I say spend the little time with him as precious as possible and he will learn to cherish it. My son like SQ, once i reach home, he cling to me like magnet…
Children are marvellous beings, they know who’s the mother no matter how long they are separated.
I experienced that too…
Whey my son was 1+ I travelled for 1-week biz trip. I called home every night to check if he was ok/miss me. Well he didn’t *sigh* and when I came back to fetch him from my mom’s, for a moment I thought he couldn’t recognise me. Then it took him a while, and after that he sort of like glued to me wherever I go
That time i was in hospital for a week, i very miss my son cause since he born i never leave him without me. When he come to visit me with his daddy he very happy to see me, me too!
Fuh, this blog really all occupied by SAHM and FTWM. Now, you got a new member, SAHB (Sit At Home Boy). *ahem ahem*
I am Jason, all under the guidance and care of 5xmom and Twinsmom since I started blogging. Oh well, I really love reading SAHM and FTWM’s blog.
Somehow, I stumbled upon your blog through Auntie Maria and well, I went through your archives and love it very much. So, Jason blink you loh~!
Ian, really nice name.
Hehe… I remembered (I think) that my mum gave me breast milk as well, but y the bonding dun have liao geh? (Me 21 y/o)
Wow, did expect so many comments. Thanks for all your warm welcome to this blog world.
Jason, haha, 21 yo’s bonding is not only through breastmilk already loh.
Welcome to the SAHM/FTWM’s world. It is good to have young boy’s views, looking at things from different angle.
Bring more friends in lah!
Anyway, back to bonding, I am now enjoying the closeness with Ian. Don’t know how long will this last. Am going to India next week, hope it doesn’t turn things around.